#1 High School Survival

Some of my lowest points survive high school with the Covid-19 pandemic :)

Hai I'm Keisya and I want to share my 'Daily Diary' to you, enjoy fellas!

Thursday, 24 February 2022

It was pretty hard to handle this feeling. Everything seems messy; my school, my life, my study, and a lot of things. I don't know where I wanna go? I don't know how to be Keisya in her middle school time. My assignment awful piled up ::>_<::, I don't understand I guess a lot of lessons. Mathematic's not on my handle, I skipped a lot of tutoring, pretty sick. I've been sleeping more than I want, I need two days to write two pages for my assignment, I buy instruments but until now it's just in my corner. Everything's bad I don't know why? I'm sorry God, maybe I fail again. I told myself that I want to be a 'Chemistry Olympiad Kid' who looks fucking cool, but I'm just sure two from 45 questions lmao. I did nothing? When do other people I guess just do random stupid acts to five questions? What if I fail my math exam? Where's Keisya who's fucking productive? Keisya who got 100 on her math exam? Where??? I just want to see her again... and look at everything on her handle. Today writing this skipped my tutoring session because I forget it HAHA.

Tuesday, 1 March 2022

Fail....

My score's pretty bad for them to choose me LMAO. I mean I'm not taking any responsibility for that 'selection test', I was over/too much rely on myself lol. I'm still asking this question for a long time, "Why do I always stop in the middle of the journey?" I mean like why myself not take it as 'serious'??? It's sick... When I will come back? How? Why do I feel like myself and I am not serious and just fucked up with everything? I want to be 'That Girl' in my mind. The girl who's beautiful, fucking cool, strong, smart, has a lot of friends, and her life seems perfect. I'm on my way to 17 still not sure about myself exactly.

Thursday, 3 March 2022

I'M COMING BACK!!!

It's Nyepi day and school free. Today studying math for a whole day, was very productive feels like Rory Gilmore. And I'm staying up until late night. I go to sleep around 2 AM for studying but still watching too LMAO. HAPPY!

One of my fav quotes:

"Forgive yourself for not knowing better at the time. Forgive yourself for giving away your power. Forgive yourself for past behaviors. Forgive yourself for the survival patterns and traits you picked up while enduring trauma. Forgive yourself for being who you needed to be."

Yes, at the end of the day You Must Love Yourself.